I REALLY ONLY FRACTURE THE RULES WE MADE TO BREAK

fact #001 - my tenth grade biology teacher made me cry

i went into her class, was given an assignment on alleles, and had no fucking idea what i was doing. this had been happening a lot lately. some people just aren’t meant to excel at certain subjects, you know? anyway, i was upset to the brink of tears. my teacher noticed and brought me some tissues. obviously not fit to sit through a class, i asked if i could go to my gifted counselor’s room. um, bad idea. my teacher took me out in the hallway, where i explained that i didn’t understand anything. so, lmao, she starts bitching at me. blah blah you’re not studying blah blah this is your own fault, blah blah. the best part: i WAS studying, and i still didn’t understand.  this is where i started crying. it was fucking humiliating. ten minutes later she said yes, i could escape, so i grabbed my shit and left.

um, i’m 100% sure you’re not supposed to bitch at a student for not understanding a lesson.

fact #002 - the only bugs i’m not afraid of: stinkbugs, fireflies, ladybugs, grasshoppers, cicadas, butterflies

fact #003 - i am t e r r i f e d of deep water

i hate swimming so much

if i can’t see through to the bottom i will NOT go in it

my fear is growing, actually, and these days if my feet don’t touch the bottom i won’t go in either

last year swimming was mandatory at my school and it was unbelievably hard for me

my gym teacher this year says we’ll only go swimming if the class majority wants to and i’m 99% sure they do

fuck you all i’m not going in any god damn water

fact #004 - i know i’m really funny but i’m always afraid i’m not and people laugh to be polite

fact #005 - i go through “food phases” where i’ll only eat a certain thing

at the moment: rice krispies treats, easy mac, caramel hershey’s kisses, cheese curls

fact #007 - i not-so-secretly-anymore enjoy keeping up with the kardashians

fact #008 - gossip girl, ai yazawa (NANA, paradise kiss) and clamp got me interested in fashion

gossip girl

ai yazawa

clamp

fact #009 - my first therapist thought i was manipulating her (when i wasn’t)

if those are the conclusions you draw from a girl telling you absolutely everything about her you should not be a therapist because you are a fucking moron

her hair looked like a mushroom

fact #010 - i can’t wear backless/wide-neck things because i have acne/acne scars on my back and it really, really upsets me